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Hi I'm Emma and I'm a recovering addict and have been clean for nearly 14 months. Therefore I am wondering if anyone else has experienced this? |
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don't even have to close my eyes... well i guess the same thing happened to me before, with me staring around & i could see things just as clear by my eyes, as i did by my mind... & now when its clear, i know i'm dreaming ;) and i fall into my dreams *constantly*... just feeling too tired to practise scribbling, too bored, too FRUSTRATED that its only noon (*sigh*)... when my excitement of the day is to make a trip to the kitchen/bathroom (again, *sigh*).... well, there is always online mah jong. :-/ i so often find myself out in a field, a verrrry large grass field that i see the wind pouring through... so much wild flowers, and i hear the breeze, and smell the flowers... i am sitting beneath the tree that i am leaning back against, & hear children singing & laughing... sometimes i am in the identical setting but i am rocking on a bench... another couple of setting that i find myself in Tibet, the air is *so* crystal clear, and bites my cheeks & eyes with every rush past me... but it is "home" to me... sitting freezing in the snow, or across rocky short grassy leading to a shallow lake....no matter where i am, in the dream, to stare at the mountains, & dream ;)... i can't explain the calm it brings me, when i'm there i don't feel like i *have* to go anywhere... ♥ |
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how to describe it... its like my brain is trying to fill in the blind place with doodling, because it don't see but has empty space... with people talking/moving i see blurry/blobs stealing colors from their clothing (the blobs move, slow or fast according to their moods) but more often i see the strings, colored gold or silver (i can't predict the color) i can tell you it resembles waving very long grass, turned all sorts of directions but coming from the speaker... listening to youtube last night had the Cure giving off green/deep-blue/thin-black strings that were almost curling (how lovely), and U2 was actually a ball that had flattened geometric sides & was colored the faint sepia/black of the video & had a very faint blue & orange fading in and out of unpredictable sides.... |
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